Just Smile

Just smile

Troubles may rise

But they will only last for a while

Just smile

Some days it will be effortless

Other days will require more effort

Just smile

Let your smile speak to your soul

Let your soul light up your mood

Just smile

Till you feel warmth in your heart

Till you feel peace in your life

Just smile

Through the sunshine

Through the rain

Just smile

Random-needed-Rumbling …

My mind and I are in a never ending war. It’s like my life is a miniature battle field. Some days, I triumph over it. Successfully reclaiming my sanity, calm and peace. Some days it wins our wars, pushing me to the edge and making me feel things I would rather not.

When does the cycle end though? I always wonder. Will there ever be a time when my happiness is not flavoured with random, intense waves of unexpected sadness? Is it something I should accommodate as “a part of my journey”? – these thoughts constantly flood my mind and the answers are lost on me.

But still, I sigh. Just kidding. I rise….. I guess. lol.

I am a fighter not a quitter. So, every time my mind wages war, I get in the ring and put up my best fight.

I am also one to allow myself to feel, so I live through the waves and this minimizes the risk of experiencing compound, complex lows which I may fail to overcome.

Writing is one of my ways to fight my mind, like right now. A random interlude on a working night to declutter my thoughts.

I hope it gets better eventually. My therapist commends my efforts in attempting wear my heart on my sleeves- I guess that counts for something.

What’s the point of masquerading and appearing to be perfect in an imperfect world?

Anyway, I’ll end here. (now to think of a title for this random blog lol)

If you’ve read this far, please send good vibes my way. (:

Until next time,

Advocacy Week: It’s okay not to be okay (#WinterABC- Day 8)

When you’re used to constantly showing strength, you feel out of element when you have to be weak

It’s rarely about the perception of others

Your emotions may make you feel like you’re letting yourself down

But remember, it’s okay not to be okay

There are times when unknown fears start creeping in

When you look for strength but it eludes you

Your heart tires

And your soul aches

You feel like life’s a battle field

And you’re terribly losing the war

But remember it’s okay not to be okay

Some times life gets heavy

The waves get wavy

For every time you feel like you’re drowning

Look closely and you’ll see life guards ready to help keep you afloat

You’re never alone in life’s rocky boat.

It’s okay not be okay …

But eventually, you will be okay.

And when words are not enough, I hope songs like this one help you pull through:

Dedicated to everyone who battles with anxiety and depression,

Dedicated to everyone who has felt like throwing in the towel one too many times

Dedicated to you

Dedicated to me ….